Saturday, April 25, 2009

Friday I had one of those days which humbles me as a parent (as if I needed that) and gives me a few moments of feeling like a crap parent to boot. Without going into details, I left Colven asleep in his carseat too long and he woke up while I was bringing a load of laundry up to the pump house so he woke up alone and started to cry. Then a bit later we went to try out a dance class and I had to take one of those pregnant and utterly unrewarding urination trips to the bathroom SO badly so I slipped out only to have my precious child pounding on the door before I could finish with full tears and sobs because he looked for me and I was gone. When we got home we put together some new adirondack chairs for the lawn (working with tools? Colven is all about that!) and he was having a great time until he fell down and got a bloody nose! Seriously! Right while I watched but couldn't do anything about it. I know all of these things just happen, but I'm thinking coupled with pregnancy hormones I just felt .... well... like complete shit. And sorry for myself. It was pathetic. So once Cyrus came home I sat in one of the newly finished chairs and made myself snap out of it. Then Colven brought me flowers which I had to force myself not to cry about! Ahhh! Pregnancy!

4 comments:

L and J said...

The good thing about Colven is that his love for you is unconditional. Try not to beat yourself up, you're an amazing mommy!

Marlyn said...

Awwww Mama! Your love, and his understanding of it, run way deeper than broken naps, pee breaks, and bloody noses!

Sherri said...

Ditto the above Erin. Though I seem to be having one of those "weeks". ;-)

JJElias said...

I think life is full of those moments, pregnant or not! You are an incredible mother...there are many who should learn from you!!